Saturday, January 07, 2006

losing the race

encounters with girls you've slept with always makes for an interesting dynamic. it's like a contest to see whose done more since the two of you stopped sharing a bed. well at least that's the way i treat the situation.

and sadly, i seemed to have clearly lost the competition. two and a half years have passed since i started avoiding her calls and then after i changed my mind, she decided to avoid mine. since then she started some sort of phd in international economics, bought a house, and done field work in mozambique and italy. apparently she's headed to colombia for her next project. (bitch) she's also happily back with her future husband (who she was taking a break from when we got together).

i'm still wandering, having started the j school at stanford, but really just using it as a dilatory tactic while i try to find a job.

the best i can say is that she seems to have gained a bit of weight and turned the corner on her twenties. plus she was wearing a really unflattering pair of jeans. had we still been messing around, i would've cringed seeing her leave the house wearing that garment. outside of painting and gardening, those jeans should have stayed in the dresser.

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